Patience

Some may think it's easier to conduct themselves in this world if they could only see and hear their Otherworld Entities.  While at times it is helpful, at other times they will leave you completely in the dark and drive you insane. Okay, not literally insane, but they will be as vague as possible while maintaining a façade of providing information.  

My Watcher can be so helpful at times.  She offers suggestions, gives insight, and helps with so many things.  But she will not tell me everything.  Sometimes the answer I receive is so non-descript that it drives me to ask more questions.  

And after a while she gets tired of avoiding my questions and just leaves.  So then I ask another entity, and not wanting to deal with the wrath of her decision to keep me in the dark, they will give me nothing as well.

It is frustrating beyond belief.  

Most of the time, I just have to trust her and let things play out.  (Well, I don't really have a choice in the matter, things play out whether I want them to or not.)   And usually everything works out okay, the unfolding of the situation is bogged down by time.  Waiting, and waiting, and waiting for a situation to develop of unfold.  

And she can't force anything to happen.  She can introduce situations, add a bit of magick here or there, but even she must allow the machination of the universe to unfold.  The world operates in cycles, and these cycles can be influenced and manipulated to a point.  But they can't be skipped over entirely.  

It is hard for me to be patient at times.  It is hard for my Watcher to be patient with me at times.  

She tells me it will be okay.  And I know it will be okay in the end, but that doesn't make the wait any easier.  It doesn't make the worry or the desperation for change any easier.  

The only thing I can do is ground and center and find inner peace while I wait.    

Where Would You Like to be in Five Years?

Have you ever been to a job interview where the interviewer asks the question, "Where would you like to be in five years?"  And you answer something that sounds good, but it isn't exactly the truth?  

You aren't going to tell an interviewer, "Well, when I'm admitted to grad school I'm dumping this crappy job and starting the life I really want."  If everyone answered truthfully most people would not get the job.  

My Mentor taught me something years ago, and I tried it back then….but haven't done it for a few years.  She told me to write a detailed description of your future on a piece of paper, fold it up, and put it away.  She always kept her lists in books, and if you borrowed a book she searched for her wishes in the pages before she handed you the book.  

She told me that when she was younger, she had a dream house in mind.  She wrote out a detailed description of the house, what it looked like, how may rooms it had, what kind of kitchen she wanted, what kind of feeling the house had, and where it was located.  

She folded the paper up, placed it in a book, and forgot about it.  Years later, she and her husband built her dream house.  The house was built in the country, it had a room for every one of her children, and it was the peaceful sanctuary she always wanted.  She had every board blessed with holy water, and she even placed pyramids in between the floors.  The energy in that home is amazing, and you feel like you have walked into another world when you passed the threshold.  

My Mentor told me that a few years after she moved in, someone wanted to borrow a book, and she found a sheet of paper with the wish for her house in it.  She read the list  and nearly everything she wished for had come true.  

I think it's time a start a new list.  It can't hurt to have a list for me, the universe, and my Otherworld Entities.  

Where do you want to be in five years?